Friday, February 19, 2010

Shefali Phul er Mala (Shefali Flower Necklace)

Dad kisses me on my forehead and then softly calls out the nickname he and mom gave to me...(_ _ _ _ _) . I open my eyes reluctantly as I don't want to get out of my bed, its too early maybe 6.30am. Like every other day, he says the magic words... "Ma if you want to come with me, you know you have to get up now". I open my eyes and look at him, smile and then get up as quickly as I can. I love the morning walks with my dad, my favourite part is when...


I freshen up while dad gets my clothes ready for the morning walk and for school. I come into the bedroom and get dressed and put on my socks and shoes, I leave the shoelaces for dad to tie up, I dont know how to do it yet..Well I'm six years old ok !.. and sometimes when you are an only child you dont need to learn these things because someone is always willing to do it for you :p

Mom tries to make me have some breakfast before I leave the house but dad and I both say "not now..when we come back"

These walks last for 30 mins, we walk around the block, past the mosque next to our house, cross the road and turn left. We continue walking for 10 mins and reach the lake where I love going this early in the morning for one particular reason! YES its that time, my favourite time...

The tree looks as beautiful as always. The nice breeze and the sweet fragrance of it's falling flowers make this time of the day so magical and pricelesss. I look up at dad and he smiles. He reaches into his pocket and gets a plastic bag out, which by now is crunched up in the shape of a little table tennis ball. I grab the bag and give it a little shake and open it up. "Shefali phul" is the name of the flower I was going to collect in that bag. The Botanical name for this flower is - Nyctonthes Arbortristis commonly known as the Night Flowering Jasmine, the flowers lose their brightness during the day...


I start picking up the fallen flowers and putting them into the bag, dad does the same. Together we collect these flowers every day, early in the morning.

The bag is almost full now, and it has been almost 25 mins since we left home so we should be going back now otherwise I will be late for school and dad late for work. I give him the bag, hold his hand and we walk back home.

Dad gives me bag of flowers and I show mum...I smell the flowers and then tie up the bag and put it in the refrigerator. I do this so that once I get back hom from school I can make flower necklaces and the flowers wont go bad.

I change into my school clothes and oh no... like other mornings, Im starting to feel sick again. The thought of school makes me feel nauseous...

After a long day at school (I vomitted near the school gate, which is a common occurance for me, I think by now everyone at my school knows this fact!) Im finally home.

Sometime passes and Ive had a little nap and now Im up to making my flower necklaces. My friends will arrive soon to get me, we all go to the park in the afternoon to play and come back around sunset. I have to make the flowers before they come! I gather the thread and needle and start making the necklaces. I have made three, one for myself and two for the other friends...

They are here! I put on my necklace and give them their ones and we are off to the playgrounds!

By T.K










Wednesday, February 17, 2010

Foolish Game



The lair in him
The fool in me
The lust in him
The love in me
The game in him
The trust in me
Real men are from Mars

Real women from Venus
This guy was from Pluto
At that time i couldnt see it :p


------ VERSE 1 ------

He said "i'll treat you just like a queen,
buy you all of those expensive things
give you everything you want and need"
He knew how to talk it but didnt know how to walk it
Yet, I had faith in him

He said "i'm your man, girl trust in me,
gimme your hand please let me lead,
it will be ok, cause i wont leave"
I gave him my hand when i should've run away from him
Yes, that was silly of me

Today im sitting here on my own !
Trusting nothing, trusting no one
Yes yes , I guess I've learnt my lesson
But the pain is so unbearable, i really need a miracle !


------- CHORUS -------

Magic, magic make for me, a man
A man who can understand who i really am
Magic, magic do your thing!
And make for me a man who can make me smile again

Magic, magic make for me, a man
A man who can cater to most of my demands
Magic, magic I know you can
Make me for me a man who will be my bestfriend - oh,
~who can be my bestfriend oh oh~
~who will be the best man... oouoh~
I know you can MAGIC, yes I know you can!


------ VERSE 2 -------

He said "i'll be there for you everytime,
all you gotta do is call out my name,
baby do you know im your number one fan?"
He had a good disguise which i failed to realize
Yep, I was so naive

He said "baby i dont cheat it aint my style,
it will be enough having you as my girl,
look into my eyes, you are my world"
I looked into his eyes but couldn't spot all the lies
Yes, he'd blinded me

Look at me today, Im sitting here on my own !
Trusting nothing, trusting no one
Yes yes, i guess ive learnt my lesson
But the pain is so unbearable, i really need a miracle !

------- CHORUS -------

Magic, magic make for me, a man
A man who can understand who i really am
Magic, magic do your thing
And make for me a man who can make me smile again

Magic, magic make for me, a man
A man who can cater to most of my demands
Magic, magic I know you can
Make for me a man who will be my bestfried - oh,
~who can be my bestfriend oh oh~
~who will be the best man....oouoh~
I know you can MAGIC, yes I know you can!
The liar in him
The fool in me
The lust in him
The love in me
The game in him
The trust in me
Real men are from Mars

Real women from Venus
This guy was from Pluto
At that time I couldnt see it :)

By T.K

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

A Beautiful Smile

Her sky isnt blue cause she's painted it yellow
See, she doesnt know how to say her name
Im searching her eyes for a sign of tomorrow
But she only knows how to live for today

Love passes her by leaving her only with sorrow
Lonely days followed by lonely nights
She does not ask why she was born to be alone
Questioning isnt in her sense


Her smile, smile for me beautiful girl
That smile is brighter than the sun itself
Her smile, smile for me beautiful girl
That smile dries up her tears everyday
Her smile, smile for me beautiful girl
That smile can help you forget your pain
Her smile, smile for me beautiful girl
You are so young, so sweet, so innocent


People keep running from the girl who wants nothing
They all keep thinking she might ask them for help
Yet she keeps on running to the people and wanting
To give them a hand she wants to offer them help

This world seems so crazy to the beautiful lady
Every step that she takes seems like another mistake
But she's not a lady to this world she's just crazy
And the steps that she's taken are all being erased


Her smile, smile for me beautiful girl
That smile is brighter than the sun itself
Her smile, smile for me beautiful girl
That smile dries up her tears everyday
Her smile, smile for me beautiful girl
That smile can help you forget all your pain
Her smile, smile for me beautiful girl
You are so young, so kind, so innocent


By T.K
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This was written by me after I spent some time looking after a girl suffering from mental illness. The girl is fourteen years old and an grew up in an orphanage. She never spoke a word but smiled a great deal. Everytime she smiled I realized how this world and all her pain meant nothing to her, how she was going to live her life like the way she was, poor, sick, alone, and she had to accept that. She was forced to accept that by the situation. At the age of eleven, the girl was rapped and she fell pregnant. She now has a baby girl. The thing is though, she does not think that she has had a baby at all. The baby is growing up in an orphanage and will be given up for adoption. The child will never know her mum and the mum can't be expected to understand that she has a child. During the time I worked with the girl, she would always like to color. She would always color her sky yellow, and the ground red. The colors for everything else changed but her sky was always yellow and the ground red, that never changed and I will never understand why.